I’ve been carrying anxiety like a mantle inherited from my forefathers lately. It’s crushing at times. When I try to talk about it with friends or family, I’m often just met with questions about its origin. Here’s the thing: sometimes, it just hits me like some emotional IED completely out of nowhere. Sure, some triggers and events likely contribute to the emotional rollercoasters, but in many cases, I wake up in a panic and stay in that fight or flight for hours at a time.
This was such a transparent and satisfying read. I have never looked at that story in that way, but it makes sense. I’m so grateful that we don’t have to hide anything from God, even though at times that feels like the right thing to do. It sucks and if I’m honest, anxiety has stolen from me and altered my families life in ways I never thought it could. But I do remain hopeful in Him(because redemption!) and the fact that in some way our own experiences can greatly help others as we share them. Thank you for sharing yours. I hope you and Jess are doing well!
Thank you so much for reading. Sometimes it’s just refreshing to know we aren’t alone and people throughout time have experienced the same highs and lows and God is there when and if we need Him.
Stan. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this. I know people have the best intentions. I am one that always wants to “fix” the problem and help family. Sometimes there is no way to fix it. It is in those times I have to lean on the Lord and just pray. Also I have found out over the years that most people, even including family just don’t wanna hear about your problems or issues. Many times it’s “well let me tell you about my troubles”. Human nature sucks at times. As always love reading your articles. Keep it up! Love and hugs!!
Right, I’m usually someone people unburden themselves too so when I’m feeling down or anxious I often feel very alone because I don’t want to add weight to those around me. Writing / nature / faith all tend to help me get out of those funks when I can muster the discipline to not just sleep ahah. It’s all a process. Thanks for reading as always.
So well written, love this: "When I’m spiraling in my anxiety attacks and feeling stressed, I have to remember that I, too, likely consumed a bitter fruit. When you dwell on all the variables of the knowledge of good and evil, it’s easy to lose sight of the blessings around you. Usually, some rejection, insecurity, or weakness leads me down this rabbit hole of doubt and doom. I hide from the goodness and retreat to darker places. It’s almost as if that fallen nature is pre-programmed into us now."
Thanks John, I knew you’d like this one. There’s so much depth to that story and the other creation narratives in the Bible, I refer back to it so much that I may have to write something bigger on it later, lol sounds like a good cabin talk conversation at the very least.
Consuming so much media surrounding politics is my bitter fruit at this moment. Anxiety about what will happen in November and beyond overwhelms me sometimes. I’ve notice when I lay down my phone and step away from it all, God finds me, and Grace covers me for a while. Thanks, Stan for sharing your story and insights.
I wholeheartedly agree with you there, I think this season of politics and divisiveness is for sure one of the culprits leading to anxiety for me. Feels like no real good options and everyone is so polarized. I also agree with setting down the phone and disengaging. Thanks so much for reading.
I love this!
Anxiety sucks!
It seems like in this day & age it can be impossible to avoid it.
You are right that we have a covering whether we choose to use it or not.
There is an old song called “The Warrior is a child” by Twila Paris that I often listen to when I’m stressed, when anxiety has taken over.
Music for me is a definite tool against anxiety .
Your honesty & transparency is such a blessing!!!
Thank you!❤️
Thank you! Music definitely helps me too.
This was such a transparent and satisfying read. I have never looked at that story in that way, but it makes sense. I’m so grateful that we don’t have to hide anything from God, even though at times that feels like the right thing to do. It sucks and if I’m honest, anxiety has stolen from me and altered my families life in ways I never thought it could. But I do remain hopeful in Him(because redemption!) and the fact that in some way our own experiences can greatly help others as we share them. Thank you for sharing yours. I hope you and Jess are doing well!
Thank you so much for reading. Sometimes it’s just refreshing to know we aren’t alone and people throughout time have experienced the same highs and lows and God is there when and if we need Him.
Stan. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this. I know people have the best intentions. I am one that always wants to “fix” the problem and help family. Sometimes there is no way to fix it. It is in those times I have to lean on the Lord and just pray. Also I have found out over the years that most people, even including family just don’t wanna hear about your problems or issues. Many times it’s “well let me tell you about my troubles”. Human nature sucks at times. As always love reading your articles. Keep it up! Love and hugs!!
Right, I’m usually someone people unburden themselves too so when I’m feeling down or anxious I often feel very alone because I don’t want to add weight to those around me. Writing / nature / faith all tend to help me get out of those funks when I can muster the discipline to not just sleep ahah. It’s all a process. Thanks for reading as always.
So well written, love this: "When I’m spiraling in my anxiety attacks and feeling stressed, I have to remember that I, too, likely consumed a bitter fruit. When you dwell on all the variables of the knowledge of good and evil, it’s easy to lose sight of the blessings around you. Usually, some rejection, insecurity, or weakness leads me down this rabbit hole of doubt and doom. I hide from the goodness and retreat to darker places. It’s almost as if that fallen nature is pre-programmed into us now."
Thanks John, I knew you’d like this one. There’s so much depth to that story and the other creation narratives in the Bible, I refer back to it so much that I may have to write something bigger on it later, lol sounds like a good cabin talk conversation at the very least.
Consuming so much media surrounding politics is my bitter fruit at this moment. Anxiety about what will happen in November and beyond overwhelms me sometimes. I’ve notice when I lay down my phone and step away from it all, God finds me, and Grace covers me for a while. Thanks, Stan for sharing your story and insights.
I wholeheartedly agree with you there, I think this season of politics and divisiveness is for sure one of the culprits leading to anxiety for me. Feels like no real good options and everyone is so polarized. I also agree with setting down the phone and disengaging. Thanks so much for reading.